Saturday, November 19, 2011
I'm still freaking alive bitch !
Currently at Anol house , HAHA ! i love to call her that . And Mr MiuMiu freaked me out of nowhere . It's a good thing i survive rather than being in a hospital with yucky food , EWWW . Okeyh , i'm blabbling again -.- . Nizaah is beside me freakingly dancing like a cat ? Lol . I need to change my list cos apparently i don't have enough money to buy those stuff yet but what's confirm is that i'm so0o0 going shopping . It has been a long time for me not doing something girly for once and yes , i need new clothes . Lately , i get bored with my job cos i'm doing the same thing all over again ; Taking orders , key in orders , serve water & clear the tables.... and doing soda . But somehow , i've gotten better i guess . Well , i pissed one of my manager and i'm like "You know what? take this *middleFinger*" but nooo~ i was too scared to even confessed -.- , P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C . The people there thought that i'm quite innocent and blurr but what they didn't know is that i HEARD gossips mostly from themself . I don't know , i guess they know i AM there but they just didn't REALIZE ?
I blog more when i've the time , toodles !
Written at Saturday, November 19, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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Monday, October 17, 2011
Pray for this to happened please !
Seriously , i really need a job and fast . Watching adults that always went shopping after they got their pay it's like watching them in heaven . Any job that has good pay and i will ensure myself suffer for the days that i work and be happy after the cash that i will save for later used . Hopefully God blessed me :) , Amin ! This is what i WANT or NEED to buy :

1) New Handphone
2) New Earpiece
3) Treat family to SAKURA or SEOUL GRADEN or just PIZZA
4) Go USS with friends or alone -.-"
5) BASEBALL JACKET !!!!!!!!!
6) Give mommy and daddy some money
7) Give bros $50 each
8) GO FOR BLOCK B FAN MEETING & CONCERT !!!!!!!!!
9) Canon camera
10) Shopping with only $200 , is it enough ???

Well i really wanted the canon camera , baseball jacket and of cos BLOCK B fan meet & concert >.< !!!!!
Written at Monday, October 17, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Having the hardest time
I suffered 2 things this week and last week . Firstly it's about my right muscle cram causing my right leg to cram most of the time and yes its hard for me to walk or sit properly plus , enjoying most of the days saying at home , rotting till i heal -.- . Missing out lessons and spending more time on tv and lappy , i lived a happy life *roll eyes* . And secondly its about my Nlevel exams . I think that i flunked my exam this year with last minute revisions , great just GREAT~
I found my Maths paper 1 today quite easy and guess what ? i suck . I did too many mistakes and time wasn't on my side and i lost many marks . Dear god , i've done my best & even cracked my brain on questions that had drag me minutes to think of the correct method to used and now i leave the rest to you .
Written at Tuesday, October 04, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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Sunday, September 25, 2011
what will happened next ?
I played badminton with daddy just now and wuh ! he still has strength to kick my ass in the field . I've to admit that i was too lazy to run and catch that shuttle cord but you can't blame me , that old man is good enough to win the Olympic ! It has been like 1hour and he still has energy to go on but me ? My body is there but my soul is somewhere , let me see.... on the sofa of heavens sleeping . Yes , i'm too tired to even lift my arms and swing . Now i'm at home and my back is killing me . I swear if my spine still hurts , i will skip school tomorrow and study at home . But something else is bothering me . It's about friendship . I have friend A and B . Both of them are very complicated . Both of them have the same personalities and all that but what's different about them is that one has no father while the other has a father . My friend A is not close to me anymore and i don't know why . She always shares everything but now no more . While the other one , i find her bitchy sometimes . What i'm feeling , my friend B is somewhat jealous of my friendship with friend A . Since the CAMBODIA trip , both of them are together and me ? i'm left alone with no one . GREAT , i'm a loner . Friend A always , when we in a fight , WINS . She knows how to search people's fault but she's not perfect herself . Friend B , well she like to take revenge on people she hates even a tiny problem will make her take revenge on the person , she's also the one who likes to tell everybody about her problem that's involve her picture ( Someone i know has taken her picture for profile pic in her FB ) and talks about her favorite teacher . Well more of a STALKER to me or maybe she's becoming LESBIAN , who knows ?? I just didn't know what to do right now , maybe our friendship end here . Maybe this is a karma for me . Good luck for the future me :)
Written at Sunday, September 25, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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what will happened next ?
I played badminton with daddy just now and wuh ! he still has strength to kick my ass in the field . I've to admit that i was too lazy to run and catch that shuttle cord but you can't blame me , that old man is good enough to win the Olympic ! It has been like 1hour and he still has energy to go on but me ? My body is there but my soul is somewhere , let me see.... on the sofa of heavens sleeping . Yes , i'm too tired to even lift my arms and swing . Now i'm at home and my back is killing me . I swear if my spine still hurts , i will skip school tomorrow and study at home . But something else is bothering me . It's about friendship . I have friend A and B . Both of them are very complicated . Both of them have the same personalities and all that but what's different about them is that one has no father while the other has a father . My friend A is not close to me anymore and i don't know why . She always shares everything but now no more . While the other one , i find her bitchy sometimes . What i'm feeling , my friend B is somewhat jealous of my friendship with friend A . Since the CAMBODIA trip , both of them are together and me ? i'm left alone with no one . GREAT , i'm a loner . Friend A always , when we in a fight , WINS . She knows how to search people's fault but she's not perfect herself . Friend B , well she like to take revenge on people she hates even a tiny problem will make her take revenge on the person , she's also the one who likes to tell everybody about her problem that's involve her picture ( Someone i know has taken her picture for profile pic in her FB ) and talks about her favorite teacher . Well more of a STALKER to me or maybe she's becoming LESBIAN , who knows ?? I just didn't know what to do right now , maybe our friendship end here . Maybe this is a karma for me . Good luck for the future me :)
Written at Sunday, September 25, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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Friday, September 23, 2011
Wheel's of ups & downs
Have anyone told you about how life is similar to wheels saying that sometimes you can be at the top and sometimes you're just at the bottom ? well , they are absolutely right . I've always living my life like there is tomorrow and that's why i don't really appreciate what i have . You can't blame me , i'm just alive for the sake of living . I'm just not mature enough just like every single being living on this earth , far from perfect . Like my life story about uncle 'A' , 'B' and my oldest brother . Few days ago , uncle A came to my house crying in front of my grandma telling her that his wife that he is with for 8 years wanted a divorce just because of him busy with work for his family and also because she has a boyfriend & their relationship is about 1 month+ now . He keep swearing that if he gets to meet this guy , he will give him a punch in the eye and all that . It's funny though , i did cry for just a bit for his 2 sons that are too young to accept this . The oldest son even said that he wanted to run away , if i were him i would have run away too . I mean , who would bare to watch their parents fight and you are to decide which parent you wanted to be with . That's a serious shit . He can't blame his wife cos in this case both are in the wrong . He was too busy with work & he's feeling the pressure while his wife is depress and lonely . Hopefully they work things out cos in the end , they'll just make the rest of us having to bare their troubles . I mean , who's gonna have time to fetch , send , spend time with their sons . That , i will also hope the eldest won't be wild like other teenagers nowadays . While my uncle B , he's already divorce and living with us now and he'll be living with us until he have enough money to buy a house . The thing about him is that he sometimes doesn't know where he's place is . I mean , he take over control the remote TV controller and said things that are hurtful to me . To him , his sarcastic is GOD DAMN funny but actually , he's being a jerk , a REAL jerk . When i watch my show on TV , he'll be scolding me saying that i watch stupid variety shows/dramas and accused me of watching my favorite channel everyday every-time . Like hello !~ i didn't watched it everyday at every-time , it's just YOU came home at the wrong time *roll eyes* . Yes , i can't say anything cos i'm a coward , there I've said it . Cos he's older , way older , than me and i can't do anything accept for doing what he ask me to do and hearing all those 'Not-Needed-Comments' by him . Huhk , what a life . And my eldest bro , he's weird ? he has some called someone is protecting him inside his body . We muslims/islams/malays must believe in those kind of myth . I'm not afraid i mean it's cool . Think about it , having a bro doing something similar to black magic but it's not exactly black magic.. i mean , WOW~
Then i have my second brother who is now into ( But not crazy for ) kpop , evidence ? He knows the song to his so called 'Girlfriend' in a group called SISTAR and he even knows how dance to it , surprise surprise huh~

And why i have people putting on website that are not theirs ? get off my chatbox if you have nothing to say . Like hello you're flooding my chatbox , this is not FB people . Yes thanks for the nice comment but if you want to leave your blog , please write it and if you want to leave your comment with other websites that are not needed than i guess you better DON'T comment .
Written at Friday, September 23, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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Friday, September 2, 2011
Went nuts !


Okeyh WTF , this is like the 2nd time i've been deleting my posts . I guess i wanted to erase those memories ?

So anyway , i've been around . If i've said that i'll be busy with my studies , then i guess it'll be half true . My Nlevel is coming and here i am with my lappy downloading songs and watched stupid videos , i guess i'm addicted ? Truthfully , i didn't know what to do , i didn't feel the rush that much . Maybe it's because that i know i'll still go for ITE cos yes , i'm born stupid... not dumb but stupid . Well , maybe i'm just lazy ? Infact
, i've always dreaming that i'll become a star , in korea , well... AM I FUCKING KIDDING ME ? YES . I know i suck at singing , even dancing . Imagine me dancing with these fats around my body , ' THAT ' will be a true 2011 laughing stock , you'll never know that i'll be in the NEWS and gain popularity , >.< ? I mean , how can i be a KPOP star when i , myself , is average at everything ? And yes , that dream will be a epic failure . Evidence ? i went to an audition somewhere which i've forgotten cos it reminds me of how foolish i was . So anyway , i was dancing with some group of my friends who i've gotten to know and we've audition it's just that our performance is not up to standard . One of our member's was sick ( I've no idea if that's true... or maybe NOT ) and so he text that he wasn't coming at all . He's really good at ditching us , trust me when i said that he's REALLY good at it , i mean it. My senior was damn pissed about it and well when i talk about him on that day , she went MAD . She somewhat knows the main reason why he ditched but never have told us about it , maybe it's because of his ex that he saw the other day or he feels that we suck and didn't have a chance on that competition or even he's just plain hopeless , who knows ? But before that , we've been dancing in front of some old folks below some flat . We were okeyh i guess but boy , i suck . There's a part where one of our shoulder needs to go on the right and there i am in the picture i go on the left =.= , great shit , just GREAT . As we were up next , i was pretty nervous even though i have perform in school couple of times before . As we were dancing , we somehow forget our places and everything was a mess , now you can see why I've said that he's good at ditching us. It's not just the tense of our two teachers who were there to support us or the two bitches judge that was laughing and mocking instead of just watching us , it's about us forgetting our dance moves-.- . Yes we have practice but we spend most of the time joking around . I mean , when one or two person didn't attend the practice , we will spend our time watching videos . No wonder we suck . But yes , it was fun taking photos after our audition is over cos that's the only thing that we've been enjoying ourselves , YEAH FOR US . Then it's puasa for a month were all muslims and islams needs to fast which means no drinking or eating before 7pm+ . Great that the month has past and now it's hari raya where the younger ones needs to apologize on their wrong doings to the older ones even with their friends , etc . It's just that i hate to seek forgiveness to those who i hate , it really gets my temperature bursting . Urgh , GOD !

*put the angry moments aside * Okeyh , now i'm gonna say that i'm bias towards BLOCK B . Yes , it's a Korean group ( Don't blame me , cos Korean people have magic powers that can easily make me go gugugaga over them ) Especially the leader of the group , ZICO . With their original talents , they can go very far . HWAITING !

Written at Friday, September 02, 2011 by IkHaBuTTeRcO0kIeS*.
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